This whole week all I’ve been seeing are couples. Couples on the left making out, couples on the right holding hands, giggling, and making cute faces at eachother, couples in front of me sitting together. 

I absolutley hated it :( 

It made me miss Luis more than ever. I haven’t gotten one of these weeks, but I hate those days when all you want is your lover, and all you see are other couples happy as fuck together :( 

And to TOP it off, everyone I spoke to today told me how they are going on a date with their boyfriend :( 

I haven’t been to the movies in MONTHS. I want to go with LuLu :( 

Wah baby, why do you gotta be so far away from me :(((((

Usually I’m strong…but I guess sometimes it just gets to you.

Sigh, I miss you Luis come here.

And next week on Valentine’s Day is his birthday, then a week after that it’s fine. I never cared for V-Day. But it’s my baby’s birthday…so I only wish we got to do something special. 

I can’t wait to make up all this time we’ve been apart. I love you Luis. And I miss you more than anything. :(

It makes the rest of my day absolutley wonderful and bearable through all the shit I know will happen. He woke me up for my 730 am final. 

:) I love it. Sometimes when I lose hope and get paranoid I’m reminded of how much he loves me and cares about me no matter the distance. 

So a while back I posted saying how I was kinda jealous and happy for all the couples and about how all the couples who were getting to see each other or finally meet , and I was like “oh my gosh guys, I can’t want to have a post about this, like a countdown to see my baby” 

WELL GUESS WHAT! The countdown starts TODAY :D I booked my flights to the East Coast, and I am FINALLY seeing the love of my life <3 

I am going to shower him with kisses, hugs, love, EVERYTHING. I can’t FUCKING wait. My dreams are finalllllly coming true :) After a whole year and 4 months dating, we are finally going to be together. <3 Holy shit. This is so un-real. 

I’m going to NY to see my dad, and then he’s going to up from Jersey for some days to spend in the city. Holy shit. CAN THESE WEEKS GO BY ANY FUCKING FASTER? 

So for the next couple of weeks expect my excitedness to be coming out of this blog. No more sad days. JUST happy days. 

OHHHH Happy days <3 I’m going to take pictures, and post them just like all the other LDR’s to show hoow amazing out love is <3 And how me and my baby made it, and all those negative fuckers that continuosly bash on LDR’s can go suck on it :) 

So the whole day I’ve been jumping up and down since I booked my flight and told him. And I randomnly catch myself smiling, and my mom thinks I’m crazy, oh and I do these weird random excited girl screams. 

Okay going to go study for my Midterm :D I’m SO excited to study :) It means ONE day closer to my baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 I can run 500 miles with my energy. Ok, maybe not. BUT STILL :D 

1 MONTH left, :D:D:D 

I love you Luis , and I can’t WAIT to finally be with you.

AND oh, for those who have YET to see their loves, or meet them, or anything HOLD ON, this WILL happen. I PROMISE. You can make it <3 If me and all these others did, sure as HELL you can :) <3 Keep your heads up, oh and SMILE!

&&&& it’s one of those nights/days where I don’t work/baby-sit. SO I like to sit on my couch, watching movies, eating take-out, chocolate and being a fat ass. In my sweatpants, with a big sweater, a blankie, and Tumblr. And then I look at around the house, or the room…and no one’s there. I feel lonely as fuck. And then meanwhile I’m texting Luis, and I wish he was here with me. Cuddling. Watching our favorite movie. Kissing him here and there, saying “i love you” and just looking over and seeing him there with me. Just happy. 

Then I remember I’m alone again. And cry. And eat chocolate. 

Just another Friday night……

I know it’s wrong. But I try not to be. But fuck, I really am. I’m jealous of people who get to see you all the fucking time. Talk to you whenever they want. They don’t know how LUCKY they are. 

I Want To Cry. I want to be with you. Why are you in New Jersey. Why am I in California? Why can’t we just be together.

You know today, I met this girl. And we were sitting in class, it was a group of us. We had finished our exercise. And then we came to talking about different things. Then she noticed a my ring, on my ring finger. I mainly put it there because it feels more comfortable because I am right handed and it bothers me on my right hand so I put it on my left, and plus it’s a statement of “I’m taken”. Well to me it is. So she asked me if I had a boyfriend, and quite happily I replied “yes”. And she’s like “oh cool, does he go here?” And I explained to her no he doesn’t. He lives in New Jersey. And she’s like, “oh”. Then I kind of got angry, and I’m like, what do you mean, “oh”. And she’s like, “well technically you aren’t really together. So he’s not even  your boyfriend, I find it odd how you call him your boyfriend when he’s not even here”. I was shocked about HOW rude she could be. I wanted to punch her face. I swear. I kindly explained to her that, yes he is my boyfriend even though we are seperated. And she kept chuckling and going, “no really he isn’t, find someone here, stop being stupid”. I looked at her, said, ” i dont give TWO fucks if you don’t think he’s my boyfriend. He IS my boyfriend, I love him NO matter the fucking distance. Yeah, I miss him like crazy, and just because we don’t see eachother, it does NOT mean we are NOT in love or AREN’T boyfriend and girlfriend. Then I said, I hope one day you and the love of your life get speerated. I know that is SO mean to say, and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone. But I hope to God it happens to you, so that you can see it doesn’t MATTER the fucking distance”. Got up and walked away. 

I don’t know HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES I run into idiots like these telling them my boyfriend is REAL or that my relationship is real. The next time someone says, “are you in a relationship” or “do you have a boyfriend” I’ll say “yes, and the rest is none of your business, I’m happy so fuck off”. Well, maybe not the “fuck off ” part But still. 

I’m mad. It’s always the days where I miss Luis the most. That idiots like these spring up, being so fucking rude. Like where are your damn manners. I don’t care if you’re being HONEST, but shit, have some limits. 

I’m just going to go cry myself a river and cry.

I Love You Luis. I don’t care what they say. We WILL be together one day. FUCK what they think. 

I Miss You Luis :(

He’s been ignoring me, and we got into a really big fight last night and yesterday. We haven’t spoken these past few weeks, because of his busy schedule, and it’s taking a toll on our relationship. He said he was unsure about this relationship. It hurts to know that after being together for a year and 2 months, hes giving up like this. But I’m still going to fight for him. I don’t care. I love this boy with all my heart. I hate this distance, getting in the way of two people who love each other. It’s so unfair. But you know what, even if something bad does happen between me and him, I will forever love him. Maybe he doesn’t want me anymore and it hurts me. I will FOREVER support Long Distance Relationships. Be strong guys. But I hope everything will work out in the end. 

I’m going to fight for him. I won’t let distance kill us. 

I love you Luis.