I Want To Get Married
I want to prepare my wedding. Get my dress. See Luis standing, waiting for me at the alter. Knowing I’m going to marry the love of my life. I know people call me crazy. But I really do . Everyone tells me I still have A LOT of growing up to do. I know that.I really do. But I feel like a Mother, a House-wife and pretty much everything. I am always the one cooking dinner. I am always the one grocery shopping. I do all my family’s laundry. I know it doesn’t qualify me to get married…but still. I nanny 24.7 and these kids call me “mommy”. I work. I go to school. Etc. But I want to be married. I want to start my life with him; Luis. I want us to have children.
I’ve never had a legit family. I don’t think most people have. But I grew up in such a fucked up household, I want to create a beautiful one. I know that I am still young. I still have to finish school. But I’ve always dreamed of being a Mother. It’s weird. I’m so old-fashioned. I would love to get up early in the morning, make my Luis breakfast, kiss him away to work. Wake my kids up, make them lunch, take them to school, wish them a good day. Come home, clean up do some errands. Pick up the kids, help them with homework, make dinner, welcome Luis home, give him kisses and stuff, and then eat dinner. Have some family time, like a game or watch a movie, kiss our kids to bed, and then we have time for ourselves. I want that. I want that so bad.
I don’t care what people think. Everyone tells me I’m foolish. That I’m still young, and I have my whole life ahead of me. I know. But it’s what I want. I’m not going to go get pregnant, and get married now. But soon. I hope.
I wonder if anyone else feels like this?
But I just want that. But I guess I’ll wait.